I'm Glad My Mom Died

我很高興我媽死了——一部讓人笑著心碎的真實人生
美國知名演員、編導｜珍妮特．麥考迪 Jennette McCurdy走過創傷的自癒與成長之路

揭開國民童星的內在創傷與成長祕密
坦率、幽默，卻又讓人心碎
直面母女關係中難以解開的矛盾、傷痛與愛


全球暢銷逾三百萬冊，《紐約時報》與國際雙料冠軍回憶錄——由《iCarly》、《Sam & Cat》童星珍妮特・麥考迪親筆書寫，直面她作為童星的成長創傷與自我重建之路。
六歲那年，她踏進第一場試鏡；那不是她的夢，而是母親的。為了成為「完美女兒」，她接受極端飲食控制、反覆量體重，在母親的全面掌控下失去身體與人生的主導權——甚至直到十六歲，仍無法擁有最基本的隱私。
當她終於憑《iCarly》爆紅，鎂光燈帶來的卻不是自由，而是焦慮、自我厭惡與逐漸失控的人生。飲食失調、成癮與扭曲關係不斷擴大；而在主演《Sam & Cat》期間母親離世，才讓她第一次有機會停下來，面對「自己真正想要的人生」。
以毫不掩飾的誠實與黑色幽默，麥考迪寫下這段既荒謬又心碎的經歷——關於控制、依附與創傷，也關於奪回自我、重新活一次的勇氣。這不只是一本回憶錄，更是一場關於自由的告白。

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A heartbreaking and hilarious memoir by iCarly and Sam & Cat star Jennette McCurdy about her struggles as a former child actor—including eating disorders, addiction, and a complicated relationship with her overbearing mother—and how she retook control of her life.

Jennette McCurdy was six years old when she had her first acting audition. Her mother’s dream was for her only daughter to become a star, and Jennette would do anything to make her mother happy. So she went along with what Mom called “calorie restriction,” eating little and weighing herself five times a day. She endured extensive at-home makeovers while Mom chided, “Your eyelashes are invisible, okay? You think Dakota Fanning doesn’t tint hers?” She was even showered by Mom until age sixteen while sharing her diaries, email, and all her income.

In I’m Glad My Mom Died, Jennette recounts all this in unflinching detail—just as she chronicles what happens when the dream finally comes true. Cast in a new Nickelodeon series called iCarly, she is thrust into fame. Though Mom is ecstatic, emailing fan club moderators and getting on a first-name basis with the paparazzi (“Hi Gale!”), Jennette is riddled with anxiety, shame, and self-loathing, which manifest into eating disorders, addiction, and a series of unhealthy relationships. These issues only get worse when, soon after taking the lead in the iCarly spinoff Sam & Cat alongside Ariana Grande, her mother dies of cancer. Finally, after discovering therapy and quitting acting, Jennette embarks on recovery and decides for the first time in her life what she really wants.

Told with refreshing candor and dark humor, I’m Glad My Mom Died is an inspiring story of resilience, independence, and the joy of shampooing your own hair.