Pan

一位早慧的青少年首次經歷恐慌發作，從此墜入深不見底的兔子洞……

這是當代最獨特的文學心靈之一、古根漢獎得主麥可．克魯恩（Michael Clune）令人驚艷的小說處女作。

15歲的尼可拉斯某天突然忘了怎麼呼吸。他早就有許多讓人不安的理由：自從來自俄羅斯的母親把他趕出家門後，他就和父親一起住在陰鬱的芝加哥郊區。某天在幾何課上，他突然意識到自己的手只是一對「物體」。醫生說這只是恐慌發作，但尼可拉斯懷疑，他的問題也許並不只是心理疾病——或許，是希臘神祇潘（Pan）被困在他體內了。

隨著他對自我意識的理解逐漸崩潰，尼可拉斯、他的死黨泰以及曖昧對象莎拉一起展開尋找答案的旅程——在奧斯卡‧王爾德與波特萊爾的作品中、在搖滾與巴赫的音樂裡、在那間神祕混亂的「穀倉」中。在那兒，班上的陶德的哥哥伊恩帶領一群高中生進行某些儀式，那些儀式或許將違反的不只是法律……

**《潘》驚險、充滿思辨又異常幽默，是成長小說類型中的全新傑作。

**作者麥可．克魯恩曾以描寫自己海洛因成癮經歷的回憶錄《白茫茫》（White Out）榮登《紐約客》年度最佳書籍之一，並擁有一群忠實書迷。現在，在這部探討焦慮世代的偉大小說《潘》中，克魯恩引領我們深入人類內心深處，逼我們面對一個令人不安的可能：掌控我們心靈的力量，可能比我們願意承認的還要陌生與詭異。

“[Pan] has literary circles buzzing . . . Rendered in dazzling prose, Clune’s debut novel paints a luminous portrait of the unique psychosis that growing up in suburbia can foster.” ―Bustle

“I steal language and ideas from Michael Clune.” ―Ben Lerner, Pulitzer Prize-nominated author of The Topeka School

A strange and brilliant teenager's first panic attacks lead him down the rabbit hole in this wild, highly anticipated debut novel from one of our most distinctive literary minds

Nicholas is fifteen when he forgets how to breathe. He had plenty of reason to feel unstable already: He’s been living with his dad in the bleak Chicago suburbs since his Russian-born mom kicked him out. Then one day in geometry class, Nicholas suddenly realizes that his hands are objects. The doctor says it’s just panic, but Nicholas suspects that his real problem might not be a psychiatric one: maybe the Greek god Pan is trapped inside his body. As his paradigm for his own consciousness crumbles, Nicholas; his best friend, Ty; and his maybe-girlfriend, Sarah, hunt for answers why—in Oscar Wilde and in Charles Baudelaire, in rock and roll and in Bach, and in the mysterious, drugged-out Barn, where their classmate Tod’s charismatic older brother Ian leads the high schoolers in rituals that might end up breaking more than just the law.

Thrilling, cerebral, and startlingly funny, Pan is a new masterpiece of the coming-of-age genre by Guggenheim fellow and literary scholar Michael Clune, whose memoir of heroin addiction, White Out—named one of The New Yorker’s best books of the year—earned him a cult readership. Now, in Pan, the great novel of our age of anxiety, Clune drops us inside the human psyche, where we risk discovering that the forces controlling our inner lives could be more alien than we want to let ourselves believe.